🌙 oh the things you find. (Taken with instagram)
Dear You,
After asking you for a yes or no and not clearly getting a yes, everything else means no. Especially saying you still have feelings for someone else. I now realize I’m nothing but a place keeper and someone to fill the lonely gaps. I Just don’t understand you telling me these things, cutting it off and finally telling me no, but the rest of the night continue to get jealous and never leave my side and make sure you took me home….. It was absolutely wonderful evening but I know now it’s all fake feelings.
And even if for some reason your still too afraid to face your real feelings and pushing this away is all you know….. I want you to know I can’t wait around forever, a year and a half was long enough sorry but your on your own.
I want to be a part of your life but not has a fill in until you get what you want or something better comes around. I deserve better than that.
So yes, I’m giving up.
Maybe one day I’ll be the one the someone you “still have feelings for” but by then, i’m sure it’ll be to late.
Sincerely forever,
Me.
High school for me =
Volcom
Hoodies
Band T’s
dark ass makeup
my bf
“myspace”
emo ass pictures
“D0W0rkcr3w” Lol me and my lame friend’s “Group’s” name.
……yeah I found my old photo bucket…
Pretty damn true. My heart has become so hardened by the mass of dudes who have strung me along, played me, cheated on me, used me. I feel bad for the guy who actually really likes me one day he’s got his work cut out for him.
Summer,
I already miss Vampire diaries and Once upon a time. Least I have the Bachelorette! and I guess PLL is starting soon. Maybe I’ll start a show on Netflix. Or rewatch the OC or Greek.
Summer schools going to be the death of me, but whatever it takes to graduate on time. I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE! Everyone keeps asking me what I wanna do with my degree and to be honest I DON’T want to be a personal trainer… I don’t wanna work with fat lazy people who view exercise as torture. I mean it’s not my favorite thing either to get my butt to the gym but once I’m there and after I’m done I feel really refreshed and good about myself.
That’s why I want to work with athletes and be an athletic trainer for a sport team. Designing workouts for them would be fun! Then my OCD organization skills could come into play. Maybe meet a husband ;)
So enough about that, I don’t know how I’m going to continue working at Nordy’s during Fall 2012 semester I HAVE TO PASS every class and im taking quite a few classes…
I wanna go to New Orleans mid July to help my big move away. I also want to go back there for my 21st bday in AUG and tear up bourbon street so really, I can’t stop working so I can pay for all this transportation. I would also love to stop in Texas but maybe Mr. Texas will come to me and be my birthday present :) Who knows if it’ll all really happen, but hey I can dream.
Oh hey lets reiterate the fact that IM 21 IN 88 DAYS!!!!!!!!! I will be sooooo happy on Aug 20th. Not cause I want to go get schwasted every night but so I can just go out with my friends and simply not have to worry one bit about getting in or being left home when they all go out. Oh and my parents can’t keep throwing things in my face about how I’m to young to do anything. Heyyyy another reason why I need a job so I can start paying for completely all my own shit. Then they REALLY can’t tell me what to do.
Alright enough venting for now.
Peace
XOXO
-me
PS. Excuse my errors im not rereading through this
